During a particularly emotional vent/distraction stream, I decided to tackle an idea I had lingering in mind as part of my process of self-care and healing.
As I discussed in an earlier post, I've come to the realization that my realsona, Chocolate (who I refer to Chocolate "Pupbun" for clarity), has acted as my fursona that's true to life, to the extent of offering little in the way of aspirational goals. Put simply, she's so close to how I really am that she doesn't provide me with much to strive for.
This came about from noticing that I'd lost sight of what my other fursonas - Chocolate, Ruby, and Soul - stood for and represented to me. I wanted to remind myself that they're still there for me, waiting for when I'm ready to follow their lead again. It may look rather melancholy, but the intent is actually quite hopeful. Acknowledging that I've not been well, but that I've not lost those aspects of myself despite missing them for a while, was quite cathartic.
I intend to follow it up with more positive scenes once I'm in a better place, mentally and emotionally, and I've already made great strides towards that.
*patpatpats*
This made me stop and consider my own fursona and what she means for me. I also have one that is 1 for 1 true to life, and looking back, I that that’s been a hindrance at times. I refrain from drawing her doing anything “out of character”, or that I haven’t experienced IRL. Changing her design was a huge step in regards to this that I didn’t even understand I was making, but I’m considering it in a new light after seeing this.
Looking back through my posts for the purposes of uploading them publicly, I found this again, and wanted to let you know that it means a lot to me. I’ve seen some of the things that have come of this already, and I think it’s beautiful.