Puppyween ’24

For Halloween I made something for myself as a treat, cause I was needing something fun for a change. This was actually Garnet's idea, which she shared with me with the intention of commissioning it, but I liked it so much that I made it anyway. The hardest part was naturally deciding between drawing myself as a puppy in a bunny costume, or a bunny in a puppy costume.

I neglected to put this on my site originally because I figured posting it publicly right away would make it redundant, but I forgot that's kinda the point of being on 10 different sites, after all. So here it is!

Optional Self-Reflection Stuff ((Sad))

As you might know by now, I like to add some personal insight to my posts on here, but I didn’t want to kill the vibe of when I originally made and uploaded it with what I had to say.

At the time, as much as I enjoyed making it and seeing everyone’s reaction to it while I was making it on stream, when finishing it I was hit with a real feeling of ambivalence for the simple reason that I “didn’t deserve” this kind of joy. Committing to making it was already tricky at the time, but the feeling kinda crystallized once I’d finished it. I hadn’t earned this. The reasons were complex and quite painful, and frankly beyond the point of this post so I’ll leave it at that, but I felt it was worth noting at least.

That was a week ago now though, and I’ve been hard at work on myself just about the entire time. I’ve come a ways from that first feeling, and I’m in a better place. Still a ways to go, but it’s all progress. 💝

I still can't get over how much I love the response of "I'm bunny" to Garnet calling me a clever girl. 💖

Feels almost like a lifetime ago now, but even still, I hope you had a good Halloween.

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