While digging up old source files for designs on my Merch store, I stumbled upon some old silliness I made for me and Arwyn.

The first pair of images were from back when I first created Ruby, inspired by how Arwyn changed tone when behaving normally around me, or discussing my insecurities about being femme and transgender. She and a few other friends of mine at the time were intensely protective of the soft pink bunny.

The second is fairly self explanatory, but for added context, it's a drawover of a scene in Sailor Moon. I made it for a print as a gift for her back in CFz 2018, which still lives on the side of her PC case to this day.

I hope everyone had a wonderful day, and if not, that it was calm and peaceful at least.

I figured I'd treat myself to something for myself, given I'd spent most of the day mostly by myself.

Thank you for your continued generosity and support. Love you all.

During a particularly emotional vent/distraction stream, I decided to tackle an idea I had lingering in mind as part of my process of self-care and healing.

As I discussed in an earlier post, I've come to the realization that my realsona, Chocolate (who I refer to Chocolate "Pupbun" for clarity), has acted as my fursona that's true to life, to the extent of offering little in the way of aspirational goals. Put simply, she's so close to how I really am that she doesn't provide me with much to strive for.

This came about from noticing that I'd lost sight of what my other fursonas - Chocolate, Ruby, and Soul - stood for and represented to me. I wanted to remind myself that they're still there for me, waiting for when I'm ready to follow their lead again. It may look rather melancholy, but the intent is actually quite hopeful. Acknowledging that I've not been well, but that I've not lost those aspects of myself despite missing them for a while, was quite cathartic.

I intend to follow it up with more positive scenes once I'm in a better place, mentally and emotionally, and I've already made great strides towards that.

Well this is certainly oddly new for me, but as if I needed an excuse, there's a rather amusing reason for this.

Earlier my friend Plushie made me aware of another artist who, unaware that I existed, designed a kitsune adoptable with a brown and cream colour scheme - which they then named "Chocolate Kitsune" when listing it. I won't name names or specify it any further than that, I just found it a funny coincidence.

I don't own a copyright on brown coloured rabbits nor kitsune, and neither the word "chocolate," but I felt it only fair to borrow the design and merge Chocolate's looks with since I quite liked it myself, too. This isn't quite how she'd present herself as a kitsune, but she certainly seems very comfortable sitting there, like that.

I think she might have a seat available for you, too..

Feeling adventurous, are we? Don't worry, the s̶̒͜ḯ̴̦ď̶ͅe̶͖͆ ̷̩͋e̷̙͂f̶̬͝f̴͕͝e̷̥̕č̸̪t̷̹̂s̷̫̉ are mostly temporary.

I made this to participate in Artconomy's ongoing art contest, and I've been planning intensely for it for a while. It genuinely took a bit of a life of its own from the concept to the execution phase, and grew well beyond what I'd initially intended to make.

And wow, I'm so very happy with how this turned out. It all started with the simple idea that if it was a drink, Soul Chocolate would absolutely be a spirit, and the more I researched the idea the more it grew and grew.

Since Soul is a bonded pair with Chocolate, it makes sense that they'd be a pair of drinks too, with the main drink acting as the warmup, and the chaser being what gets you there. When I then found a perfectly fitting drink called "Cocoa à Trois" I absolutely had to involve all three of my chocolate bunnies as part of the whole piece.

I wanted to base them off of real cocktail recipes to make them feel a little more genuine, but I then renamed them to make them a little more "mine," and to better fit the theme of the piece and of the contest this is for.

Also, pay no mind to the strange ingredient in Soul's drink. It's perfectly h̸̟̋a̸͖̕r̴̮̐m̴͔͝l̴͎̕è̶̗s̵̼̅s̷̮̓ - after all, isn't that just the most trustworthy face? - but also serves a little narrative purpose given Soul's whole thing.

Make sure to let me know if you try these two drinks together, and how they taste!

I am so fucking thrilled about this piece, I couldn't overstate just how much if I tried. This'll make for an excellent candidate for my art appraisals, possibly sometime soon.

(Bar shelf background is edited from Jorge Franganillo's 'Berlin: AM to PM' - CC BY 2.0)

This really, really sucked to have to make, but here we are.

I'm crossposting this everywhere both for visibility, and because I'm especially pleased with the art itself despite the heavy feelings it conveys. Pupbun dissociating, Chocolate taking charge, Ruby looking scared.. All the things at once made this very hard to make. I thought to add Soul looking worried about us but in the end I just couldn't do it.

I won't tell you what to do, but FA doesn't deserve our attention. It hasn't for a long time, but with Dragoneer being gone, their sheer unmitigated incompetence knows no bounds.

I don't know how I'll handle migrating off of FA, but at the bare minimum I'll be posting on there a lot less. A huge chunk of my work will immediately get me banned off of it now so, given the insane fuckwits out there who'll report the entirety of my gallery again on a stupid whim with zero recourse, attracting as little attention as possible will be my safest option anyway.

I'm doing this wholly with the expectation that I'm going to lose the entirety of my 19 year archive on that site at a moment's notice, but I simply can't afford to let my now single largest audience go so completely to waste, at least not before encouraging them to find me elsewhere.

As of today, I've been running my own crowdfunding site for 5 years! The Yeariversary was yesterday, but I can still celebrate.

Thinking back to when I first launched the Candy Shop, I remember very vividly struggling hard with expressing myself in ways I wanted to. I was terrified of scaring folks away with the things I wanted to make - kinky or otherwise - and well, now look at me.

I sadly haven't had the time nor presence of mind to focus my efforts like I did this time last year for Kinktober, but I've been prioritizing some important life stuff and making bigger plans with my art for when hopefully won't be long from now. I'll be back to business as usual as soon as I can manage, cause I do miss making as much art as I can muster for y'all, and not of any one genre either.

Given recent events with my FA suspension and cohost's closure, I've definitely been thinking a lot about our collective online presence lately. I'm really grateful that I'd divested myself from relying on any one platform by having this site going for so long, even if the continued upsets and frustrations still affect me.

I know I say this often in these kinds of celebratory posts, but it'll always bear repeating; thank you for believing in this crazy pipe dream of mine. I've had to claw my way up to here slowly over these past 5 years, and the fact that I've gotten as far as I have is not something I take for granted. I know I do things a fair bit differently to my peers, in ways that might not be all that popular, and I often lament scaring people away and stifling my own growth. However, if that were true, then those of you here genuinely believe in what I have to offer.

And that means the world to me.

Here's to another exciting year.

After designing Chocolate's regressed fantasy class as part of another project, she's lived rent-free inside my head and I just had to revisit her, even if just once more (I'd like to do more but I got enough on the pile as is).

Giving her the spotlight in a less constrained style - since I had to make the originals within specific parameters - was a lot of fun, and I'm really pleased with how it turned out. I would really like to elaborate further on the ideas I have about her lore and the way her spells work, but I'll hold off on that as incentive to do more with her in future.

For my participation in the first two sets of Little Troubles, I got to join a self insert regression piece for the third set, Roll for Regression.

Several other artists contributed art of their own characters as part of a before-and-after adventuring scene, and for mine it made perfect sense to include Chocolate as an Illusionist Sorcerer. As part of the design process, I based the adult armor and staff off of actual items from Guild Wars to start with; then infantilised the kit for the second part, which was a lot of fun. The way the illusion special effects turned out inspired what her class would be after being regressed, which I just made up.

From Femme Fatale Mesmer; to Padded Little Bubblemancer.

They might look fairly harmless next to the mind magic, but even so I wouldn't let those bubbles get too close.

You know, just in case.

Ace commissioned this lovely four-part regression/mindplay sequence with their fursona.

This was for the most part their own request, but given that they asked for Soul Chocolate to be involved and they asked for more physical interactions, like diaper changes, I figured it was high time I brought in Chocolate to double-team a victim subject of theirs at long last. If I'm not mistaken, this is the first commission I've made where both Soul and Chocolate are involved in hecking someone up.

I was flipping through the sequence trying to pick out something I particularly liked within the whole project, but honestly I just love it as a whole. I'm proud of how cozy and caring it feels despite (or even in light of?) the fact that Ace is being mentally changed and regressed without his knowledge.

Ace commissioned this lovely four-part regression/mindplay sequence with their fursona.

This was for the most part their own request, but given that they asked for Soul Chocolate to be involved and they asked for more physical interactions, like diaper changes, I figured it was high time I brought in Chocolate to double-team a victim subject of theirs at long last. If I'm not mistaken, this is the first commission I've made where both Soul and Chocolate are involved in hecking someone up.

I was flipping through the sequence trying to pick out something I particularly liked within the whole project, but honestly I just love it as a whole. I'm proud of how cozy and caring it feels despite (or even in light of?) the fact that Ace is being mentally changed and regressed without his knowledge.

So for Easter, I had this idea in mind.

Now that I've pretty much opened the door to - shall we call them - erotic shenanigans involving my realsona, I figured it'd be fun to double and triple down with magical shenanigans too. In for a penny, in for a pound, right?

Add to this the fact that Easter and TDoV coincide perfectly this year, and after some friends drew my attention to it, it gave me the best possible gimmick to throw into the mix and complete this year's obligatory Easter idea.

It's remarkable to me just how hard I went from handling my realsona as "she's me for real, so keep things grounded and realistic," to starting my transition and then later switching so hard, that my head's still spinning from finishing this extremely fucking hot, horny, and frankly excessively self-indulgent ((good)) project.

Taking just a moment to gush a bit here, it's still pretty unreal how goddamn good it felt to draw myself this way. Heavy, oversized breasts (by 4-month tgirl standards, that is); massively distended, round, laden belly; not to mention the excessively fluffy bedhead I'm sporting in the first two pages. As much as I love the second page (I think that's my favourite), I can't help but smile a little at my cute, groggy face in the first page as I lazily regain my senses from a restless night's sleep.

I hope you enjoy this even half as much as I did and do.

PS: Scroll down past the main pages to see the bonus exports I've included, exclusively in this post, for patrons to enjoy.

Given the effort that went into every panel, having worked on them as standalone illustrations first and foremost, I couldn't very well let them get crunched down to fit into a comic format without saving them in their full glory.

As a patron, you get to enjoy these larger, original versions too. Thank you for your continued support.